ytd is a happy day today is a emo day

regarding ytd, once again i felt being concerned and loved. the feeling seems too good to be lost again. only my first-ever-bf gave it to me. and ytd someone special gave me this feeling. is the 幸福 part that i realli dun feel like losing. indeed, it was like onli last nite. today i felt the feeling is gone. the feeling has been lingering, sometimes have sometimes dun have.

why emo today got a bit to do with the following. but i felt a tinge of worrying and sadness and a bit of concern towards him. pls dun tell me what i used to assure ppl is going the reversal.

the thing abt me is i am still in a v confused and dilemma stage. one moment when he said the photoshoot is nice, i smile. is a super natural happiness coming out from the bottom of the heart. but i think back, there is someone who said the same thing to me, but i jus said thanks. the diff reactions of myself is making me more and more confused over who do i feel for.

i am emo more on like the lack of trust and believe in me. hate it when they claim they knw how work is like. but have u ever been an auditor b4? not all working environment is the same. well certainly u dunno wads the co culture. Let me remind you, part of it, is DRINKING. Once i step in the working world, i force myself to socialise, i force myself to realli work. but realli need alot of courage, a drainage of energy. can dun go office is a good thing. so stop practising ur internal controls and use it on it. 22 yrs! enuff is enuff. no longer the young gal who knew nuts abt the world. not saying i knw alot abt this world. but yes, i know more of the working world and i make sure i can handle it.

i alr have no one to have my wores and unhappiness being shared w. wad more do u wanna take away ? plead for freedom. simple adult freedom. the one who used to listen walked out of my life. the emptiness in my heart is beyond description.

Well, do you still wanna be the only lonely child?