i dunno wads wrong with my emo ... and wads wrong with me.

I realli yearn for a shoulder to lean on, a person that i can hug and tell my worries and saddness to.
but there is no such person in this world as yet.

today might be my convo day. by right it shld be something that is happy. but i cannot feel the happiness jus simply becos i felt that i am alone. nv was I classified as a family. my defn of family = 3 members. and i will nv have it as there is always ppl who will come in and jus cant feel the sense of family. again talking abt warmth.. talking abt someone whom i can share my feelings with, NONE. wad makes it worst is that after long day at work, coming home at 9 plus 10 for a dinner... i got nasty remarks from those ppl term as family. I dunno why my life has always been so screwed up ... instead of grumbling, i have tried to keep myself a distance from you all such that non of u all can control me. but i realise i am getting tired of this of wad u call game. i am jus tired sick and lonely of this planet. i wonder wads my life objective or goals.

I felt so lonely I felt so helpless and I felt that I have to face everything myself. it is so scary.

I really need a lot of warmth which i dun get v much as compared to an avg gal.